{"id":243,"date":"2016-05-19T23:05:33","date_gmt":"2016-05-19T22:05:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/?p=243"},"modified":"2016-05-19T23:05:33","modified_gmt":"2016-05-19T22:05:33","slug":"life-through-a-lens","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/life-through-a-lens\/","title":{"rendered":"Life Through a lens"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"color: #800080;\">Self belief is a power weapon against the battle of the bulge, people who don&#8217;t really know me think I&#8217;m confident ( ha got them fooled) &#8230; My confidence comes in waves ( and with a bit of voddy). One moment I will be the epitome of confidence , then next a crisis of confidence has me sat away from the crowd, almost mouse like. \u00a0I shared yesterday that I&#8217;m a bit emotionally stunted and use my sense of humour as a shield. \u00a0At the end of the day though folks I am human&#8230; My coach Pom keeps telling me that believe it or not people are impressed by me and often ask him how I&#8217;m getting on. \u00a0This confuses me , I know anyone reading this might be thinking .. Well you&#8217;re writing a blog for attention. I suppose in some ways I am, this is therapy for me , it&#8217;s a way of keeping me focused it&#8217;s like a very public record of how I&#8217;m getting on, the reason it&#8217;s public is because once it&#8217;s out there you just can&#8217;t hide from it. <\/span><span style=\"color: #800080;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #800080;\">I wish sometimes I could see myself through other people&#8217;s eyes, <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #800080;\">I know you are going to see some negative things , but I believe in human kindness and I truly want to believe that when people see you are trying they respect you. \u00a0It&#8217;s nice when at the gym somebody comes up to me and says &#8220;love your blog&#8221; or &#8220;you&#8217;re doing really well&#8221; it&#8217;s happened and to those people ( I hope you read this) I want you to know, just those few words lifted me higher than the clouds. \u00a0I may not have shown it, to be honest I know I said thank you but have no idea what my body language or face was sayin ( probably sweaty and knackered). I like to think I&#8217;m applicable and those little social interactions drive me. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #800080;\">I am guilty of constantly comparing myself to other people and always coming out worse for it. I admire people and all their diversity sometimes I get a little bit envious , I don&#8217;t get jealous because I want people to achieve and I&#8217;m so happy for them when they do. \u00a0I just don&#8217;t feel like I achieve as well as other ( dumb right?). <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #800080;\">I guess I am an enigma I want to be remarkable and invisible at the same time.. So here is my new mantra ( well at least I&#8217;m going to try)<\/span><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-245\" src=\"http:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/image-2-300x300.jpeg\" alt=\"image\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/image-2-300x300.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/image-2-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/image-2.jpeg 384w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Self belief is a power weapon against the battle of the bulge, people who don&#8217;t really know me think I&#8217;m confident ( ha got them fooled) &#8230; My confidence comes in waves ( and with a bit of voddy). One moment I will be the epitome of confidence , then next a crisis of confidence [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4,6,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/243"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=243"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/243\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":246,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/243\/revisions\/246"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=243"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=243"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lf-s.co.uk\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=243"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}