Like so many others I have been fat all of my life, yes I dropped the F bomb.

There is no point glossing over it I am what I am, I am not here to big up the big girls nor to fat shame or skinny shame either.

I am all for being comfortable in your own skin and working what your mamma gave you, but I am also all for being healthy and my size has made me feel sluggish and self conscious for long enough.

Look everybody knows sugar is a preservative but it doesn’t mean eating it by the bucket full from various sources I am going to hold the key to very tubby eternal youth.

I have been dieting since I was at secondary school the tom boy with curves in a classroom full of slimmer straight up and down girls was always deemed “Fat” even though if I were the same size now you’d have to lock up your men folk lol

Not that I am blaming anybody…. I did this to myself, my weight like a flab ninja snuck up on me, crash dieting hasn’t helped either .

With every success you peak lose faith and put back on what you’ve lost with interest .. Crash dieting is like a high interest loan you get what you want for the short term but man do you ever pay for it.

A few years ago I lost five stone using a meal replacement diet.  I was pleased with my success but I wasn’t exercising so a lot of what I lost was muscle mass which when I put on all but a stone I replace with fat giving me knee pain (bloody hell Louise stop moaning). 

My point is because I didn’t do it the right way I damaged myself grrrr.

In July 2014 I joined a Gym, after much deliberation and talking to the very nice and understanding gym staff and owner.

The gym environment to me is the equivalent of that dream people have of being naked in front of a crowd (Awkward)

My first visit …… drove up looked through the window …. cried my eyes out in the car and went home.

The next day I walked through the door and I am still a member of the same gym … I have had funks and been a bit half assed about things and haven’t really dieted so although I am a little fitter than I was back then I am not where I would want to be after this amount of time.

Trouble with me is I am all or nothing and for the last four months its been nothing..

My eating habits are the same … eat nothing all day and then I’m a fridge locust.  The easy to grab things are always the things that are bad for you..

Which brings me to now……

I have a new personal trainer (I have been through a few not their fault just circumstance)  and this time my workout its starting in the kitchen and to keep me going I have started this blog.

so thanks for letting me bore you feel free to read and follow.

If you would like to contact me my email is Louise@LF-S.co.uk